Chapter 5 - Ben Had Been Raised to Protect Linda From Criticism
Ben had an older sister named Kara.
Three years older.
She lived in Indianapolis and visited:
rarely.
I always assumed the distance came from:
work.
Later I learned that was only part.
Kara and Linda had been fighting since Kara was seventeen.
Not constantly.
In cycles.
Linda believed Kara was:
dramatic,
ungrateful,
overly sensitive.
Kara believed Linda treated:
obedience
as:
respect.
Ben stood between them.
Always.
When I first met the family, I thought that made him:
peacemaker.
Kara later told me:
“No.”
“Ben wasn’t neutral.”
“He translated Mom until everybody stopped being angry at her.”
That description fit painfully well.
If Linda said something cruel:
“She’s stressed.”
If Linda insulted Kara:
“She worries about you.”
If Kara pulled away:
“You know Mom takes rejection hard.”
The responsibility for family peace always moved toward:
the person who had been hurt.
Not:
the person causing hurt.
Ben learned that young because his father, Alan, hated conflict.
Alan would leave the room when Linda started:
lecturing.
Ben stayed.
He became good at:
calming her.
That skill earned:
affection.
Kara refused.
She became:
problem child.
Ben complied.
He became:
good son.
When Alan died from pancreatic cancer five years before Ellie was born, that role became stronger.
Linda lost:
husband.
Ben became:
emotional center.
When he married me, Linda did not openly compete.
She did something subtler.
She made herself:
useful.
Holiday planning.
Repairs.
Meals.
Then childcare.
Ben experienced her involvement as:
love.
I began experiencing it as:
pressure.
Whenever I criticized Linda’s behavior around Ellie, Ben heard something older:
Mom is being rejected again.
And he moved automatically to protect:
her.
That was why, when coffee hit our daughter, his first instinct was not formed in five seconds.
It had been rehearsed for thirty-five years.
That explained him.
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It did not excuse him.
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